Real Tears

Today was a crazy day, little sleep, little time, and a possible ear infection. June has been up all night the last couple of night congested and upset. Today once I got home from work, unpacked the groceries and sat down for some cuddle time with my bug she started whinning. Once I called the doctor to find out how long urgent care was open for I had 20 minutes, HA! No way was that going to happen. So tylenol and mama time.

Once the Bugs and I had settled in for our girls night movie, June started crying. Honest to god real tears, pouty lips crying. I know to most people I sound a little sadistic when I say I was tearing up with joy watching her cry. June has moaned and cried for a minute or so maybe a handful of times since the seizures started (October 1st 2009). Tonight, I saw tears....

Never in my dreams did I think I would actually see tears stream down her beautiful cheeks. I was so close to video taping it, but I know that, that face, those tears have imprinted on my heart forever. There is something so amazing to have a girl like June. The two other kids are pretty typical "normal" kids, we went through life same ol' same ol' taking the simple things like tears for granted. June on the other hand. Every breath she takes is a new miracle for me. A smile, a tear, every time she says "ma". All of these things I was told she would never do.

My daughter the rule breaker!

I also have to tell about her sissy, My Lili, a real shining star. Since day one above Mama or Dada, brother or anyone else, Lili has been June's favorite. Lili is the magic one who can stop her from being upset, put her to sleep with a simple touch, and get smiles like no other. The bond they have may not be what we had thought life would be for our two girls, but they carry something that so few people ever get to experience. Their bond is without words, it's pure and deep love.

I am a proud proud mama tonight, every night.